Learning From The Past, Living For The Future

It's funny how 3am often brings a time for reflection on all of life's minor details.  The ups and downs of every day seem to string themselves together and portray a notion of clarity.  Everything that never made sense suddenly makes perfect sense and brews up another batch of questions to which the mind can only wonder.  When I look at all of my yesterdays I am not phased by feelings of remorse or regret.  Instead, I am filled with excitement and energy as I know I have overcome some of the most challenging moments in my life.  As I strive for a need to just simply be, I am at ease with all that had to be in order to get here.

Lost

Without a face
There is no name
No shame, no pain
There's no disgrace

The mind that paces
Loses sleep
Hard to keep
Fills empty spaces

Time moves slowly
Slow is time
Lose the rhyme
Life's too lonely

Wait it out
Clear your head
Words he said
Filled with doubt

Play the game
Know self-worth
Forget the hurt
They're all the same

Your dreams are your playground...

I often think back to a time when my responsibilities were minimal and happiness was plentiful.  A time when dreams didn't seem so far-fetched and unattainable...  Now as I sit here looking at where I've been and where I'm going, I slowly realize that I've been playing in my dreams all along but just making the wrong choices thus hindering my attempts to attain them.